Saturday, October 10, 2009
purpose / 12:08 AM
from now on, it'd be non-stop council work. :D
Want to, but I can’t help it
I love the way you feel,
Just got me stuck between my fantasy and what is real
I need it when I want it, I want it when I don’t
Tell myself I’ll stop everyday, knowin’ that I won't
I got a problem and I don’t know what to do about it
Even if I did, I don’t know if I would quit but I doubt it
I’m taken by the thought of it, and I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction, I’m so strung out on you
I can barely move but I like it
And it’s all because of you
And it’s all because…
Never get enough,
She’s the sweetest drug
Think of it every second
I can't get nothing done,
Only concern is the next time, I’m gonna get me some
Know I should stay away from, cause it's no good for me
I try and try but my obsession wont let me leave
I got a problem and I don’t know what to do about it
Even if I did, I don’t know if I would quit but I doubt it
I’m taken by the thought of it, and I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction, I’m so strung out on you
I can barely move but I like it
And it’s all because of you (all because of you)
And it’s all because of you,
Never get enough
She’s the sweetest drug
Ain’t no doubt, so strung out
Over you, over you, over you
Because of you,
And it’s all because of you,
Never get enough
She’s the sweetest drug, she’s the sweetest drug
and as i remarked earlier in the day, slogging for council is much easier than dealing with life.
honestly.
i suppose your first reaction upon seeing the above statements is to think up the comment: "no life."
i used to think "getting a life" was a priority in itself, but i think i've come to view such activities as mere breathers that allow you to get a real break, before carrying on the hard slog that is the real version of life.
i used to think that "selling your soul" to an organization like council wouldn't be a wise thing to do, and that the effort would far exceed any fruit that might be borne from such attrition. but thinking through things earlier, what's in a "soul" anyway?
devoting that much time and energy to a cause such as this - provided that such efforts are well-directed - isn't really that meaningless an activity: i'd slog night and day to bring smiles to a few faces amongst my peers, or even a few hours of joy for my batch. it isn't too much to hope for... i mean, there's so much talk about serving the community, but often, the myriad activities we engage in make us forget the very immediate community we live, work and play in - the college itself.
if charity begins at "home", where better to begin slogging out my guts out than in school?
much of the attrition we end up going through is due to the specifics of our various responsibilities anyway. it's always about adapting some pre-existing framework in a fresh and engaging manner, and i can't even begin to describe how tedious such a process is.
oh well, it's been a long time since i've stopped "managing" things and decided to charge full steam ahead for any purpose. and it's been a long time since i yelled "ALL IN" (as a gambler might) and throw everything i've got at one single goal, and ALL IN it shall be.
Because of You
by Ne-Yo
Want to, but I can’t help it
I love the way you feel,
Just got me stuck between my fantasy and what is real
I need it when I want it, I want it when I don’t
Tell myself I’ll stop everyday, knowin’ that I won't
I got a problem and I don’t know what to do about it
Even if I did, I don’t know if I would quit but I doubt it
I’m taken by the thought of it, and I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction, I’m so strung out on you
I can barely move but I like it
And it’s all because of you
And it’s all because…
Never get enough,
She’s the sweetest drug
Think of it every second
I can't get nothing done,
Only concern is the next time, I’m gonna get me some
Know I should stay away from, cause it's no good for me
I try and try but my obsession wont let me leave
I got a problem and I don’t know what to do about it
Even if I did, I don’t know if I would quit but I doubt it
I’m taken by the thought of it, and I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction, I’m so strung out on you
I can barely move but I like it
And it’s all because of you (all because of you)
And it’s all because of you,
Never get enough
She’s the sweetest drug
Ain’t no doubt, so strung out
Over you, over you, over you
Because of you,
And it’s all because of you,
Never get enough
She’s the sweetest drug, she’s the sweetest drug
